Moving Forward

Tony and I have decided to move forward with our next transfer.  I have already begun taking the required estrogen in order to do this.  My mid-cycle ultrasound is scheduled for September 23.  It will not be too long after that the transfer will take place.  We have decided to go back to the "singleton" route, and will only be transferring one embryo.  Although some may think the odds are increased in doing two (this is what we initially thought and believed even after the doctors told us otherwise, the percentage of success is still 50%.  So, we'd rather not potentially waste two embryos at once.

We are slowly recovering from our most recent disappointment with our two embryos.  I realize I have been absent here, and I apologize.  With school starting, working, and grieving I needed a little time.  There are still times when it hits me that "I can't believe we have to do this again."  But, then my faith is restored.  Those moments are becoming fewer and have more space between them.  Tony appears to have bounced back as well.  For those of you who do not know, Tony has bipolar disorder.  We have to be careful with anything involving high highs or low lows.  Losing our two embryos so quickly after losing Shadow really hit him hard.  And, as can happen with bipolar disorder, after the low he had some symptoms that indicated a manic episode might have been on the way.  I am happy to say that due to his diligence in taking his medication and his openness about what he experiences on a daily basis, we appear to be back at normal.  I am so proud of the way he chooses to let his doctor (and me) in when he's feeling something that isn't quite right.

As always, we ask for your prayers and positivity as we continue this journey we have before us.  There is nothing painful about what I have to do -- I'm grateful there are no injections, and really I have very few yucky side effects when taking this medication.  The only thing I've noticed is that I cry at the drop of a hat, but honestly that seems to happen even when I'm not taking medication.  I'm just an emotional gal!  I believe with all my heart that God has a plan for us and I know deep down that it includes children, so I'm going into this with not much worry but a lot of anticipation.  And I am so l
ooking forward to taking you along on this continuation of our journey as we go!