Around 2:45 p.m. I received a call from one of the nurses at our doctor's office. We had a nice chat, and I was able to learn some more information about our upcoming wait.
First, I have to wait for "this" to pass. I have to wait for my hCG level to reach zero. She said that, according to my symptoms, she expects the number to reflect a negative pregnancy test when I go in on Monday. I can only hope and pray she is right. Please don't misunderstand me. If I thought we had any chance of saving this pregnancy I would be all over that chance. But, I'm 99% convinced it is indeed a loss. What I would like to avoid is what we went through last summer; I do not want to go in for blood tests every 48 hours and continue to do so for several weeks while we wait for the number to drop. I would like a clean break of it so we can focus on what needs to happen next.
You may find yourself asking "and what does need to happen next?" After "this" is done, we wait for the next cycle to start. once it does, I can begin taking birth control again to quiet my ovaries. That will last for three weeks. After that, we should be okay to begin whatever the treatment will be to prepare the uterus for the next embryo transfer, which will be completed with at least one (I'm back to leaning towards doing two after this experience) of our frozen embryos.
In other news, I applied for several jobs today. I've decided I need to start now in trying to make sure we're financially ready to take this next step in our journey. I'm completely unaccustomed to not having employer-provided insurance...and let me tell you -- when it sinks in that you no longer have it, it's kind of freaky. I would most like to be hired at Trader Joe's, a grocery store. They offer benefits, even to their part-time employees. They also treat their employees very well and have a more "small town" feel than many of the big chain grocery stores. I also applied at Sendik's, another food market in the Milwaukee Area. I will also be applying at Outpost Natural Foods. Are you noticing a trend here? One of the many jobs I held when I was younger (and not a professional yet) was as a cashier in a grocery store. It was one of my most favorite jobs ever. I loved getting to chat with people when they came through the line. I'm not gonna lie, I also loved working the cash register (yes, I'm a geek)! I decided that if I'm going to work, I might as well do something I enjoy that will have flexible hours that can work around my school schedule. It wouldn't hurt either to have a place to buy groceries where I have the potential to receive a discount. We'll have to wait and see where this goes!
I've been looking into doing a 31 day blog challenge. I think it might be a good way to give me ideas on what to blog about without dwelling on our recent loss. It's going to be more than 31 days until I have any real news anyway, so if you see the blog challenge show up in my posts, you know why!
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