We had a miscarriage. It was confirmed on Monday -- my hCG was at 0.6, a negative pregnancy result. Even though that was the case, for some reason we processed this news much better this time than we did last summer. Perhaps it is because last year's "event" was long and drawn out over many weeks of blood testing every 48 hours. This time, I feel like I grieved "hard and fast," and had no choice but to be busy with my classes (oh, Biochemistry, we don't have the best relationship). I made the choice to focus on the future and it seems to be working well so far.
When the nurse called on Monday, she surprised me with a prescription for birth control. This means I have already begun my prep cycle for the frozen embryo transfer. I also found out (when I filled the prescription) that I still have health insurance -- another bonus! Looks like that may continue into August. And, we will hopefully be doing the frozen embryo transfer in August as well. We couldn't be more thrilled with this news -- we were told initially that we'd have to wait an additional month before beginning this prep cycle. I didn't question it, we just went with it! Tony and I are both doing well, we just got back from a quick family trip to Wisconsin Dells with his mom, brother, sister, two nieces and nephew. We had a wonderful time, but are exhausted! We hope to recover as the weekend begins. I have my second exam in Biochemistry tomorrow, so I should sign off now and get back to studying.
Before I go, I will continue with my "31 Days of Blogging Challenge" and leave you with a photo that is my current favorite of myself (that was the day 3 challenge). I chose this photo because even though my hair is a mess and Tony isn't smiling, we are surviving. We have grieved, but we remain a strong pair. I am so grateful that I can allow myself to smile and enjoy the little things in life, regardless of what "big things" we are going through. As always, thanks for your love, prayers and support!
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